Okayyy soo i really like never right one here unless its something major nd this shit i just cant take my its literally jus beating me the hell up keeping it inside soo i have to write!!
Okay soo umm *thinking* how can i put this i dont wanna say close friend because over the last year we grew apart soo ill say a friend of mine recently past!! like i heard about it today while thrifting!! (ugh terrible day couldnt even fine any good pieces because after hearing that, that shit messed me all thee way up) BUT anywho back to the subject one of my males friends name Josh recently passed away!! idk how to feel like i mean its like this awkward feeling i have like im sad about it but i havent shed any tears! Its like this we were coooll that was my mans on the low i told that nigga shit i never told some of my other friends or my males friends anyway!! it would be nights 4 in the morning i call this nigga crying about Rocky & he pick up & listen to the same old story & sammmee old bullshit! or the times when me & Rocky wasnt cool but i still had feelins & he’d give me the scoop on this nigga (awww good times ctfuu) cut anyway yeaa that was my mansss he called me his bestfriend but i told him he couldnt be mines because i already had one soo he was the stand in fake bestfriend when i needed someone to vent to!! && that was damn near every NIGHT!! Lls we had dumbb convos when he would talk for dayyyyyyss (felt like) about this chick he was rapping to that dogged him out something terrible nd how he would make me call these females for him because of course i was the “bestfriend” nd have to explain to the girls how he was a goodd dude ctfuu dumbbb like i will never do that again!!! BUT OKAYYY back to the venting!! I HATE how when somebody dies all of a sudden that was your boo or your manss when youu && GOD & the whole world know you use to dogg his shit or you use to no fuck with him!! like ugh bitches me & him talked about that carried him so many times is crying all over the place & writing how much they cared about him on they page THATS FAKE && then the NIGGAS ctfuuu you didnt like him when he was alive but now yall unbreakable & that was your manss all this sound like is GUILT you wasnt doing him right now so you’ll respect him when he’s dead & gone? thats night right!!! thats jus FUCKED UP!! i mean yea we was close but im not gonna do the most on fb or twitter because we havent spoke in like 3 months i mean when i see him at work but besides that i hadn’t spoke to him on the phone in 3 months!!! ughh im sorry i wrote this long ass 100page note but i jus had to get a little bit off my chest!!
Okayyyyyyy back to your regularly scheduled programming lol :) until later on tonight probably when i post more about this!!